THANKS.

a friend just got back from singapore, and look what he brought me! a piano belt, a piano wallet, a pair of 3tone blue coloured lenses, a friendship bookmark, a pair of spectatcles' lenses, and a key-chain. all of them cost around $150 brunei dollar. how can i not feel guilty!? T.T

well, at least now, my piano pencil case won't feel lonely anymore.

goodnight.

i officially declare today as a blast.

hello. :) went swimming today with dine, ajez and faez. and it was fuuuun! i'm sure i have improve my swimming skill today. thanks to them! to be blunt, i am terrified to dive, ever since my ear incident when i was a kid. i had an ear surgery back then. but today, i sure had fun diving! i swam even on the deepest spot. dine bought me a pair of ear plug when he went to miri last time. and i think that's among the useful gift i ever got, and i sure gonna treasure it. :)

today was also the first time i ever use contact lenses during swimming, so i had a great pleasure using gogle. hehe.

we then had lunch at delima. thanks to ajez for treating me and driving us there, and home. oh yeah, i think my driving skills have also improved too. ;)

back home, me and dine played some cards, watched a movie, then we off to clean my room. guess what? he vacuumed my hair, my mouth, my cheek, and.. some other parts. haha. very matured.

goodnight! :D

only god knows why.

all of a sudden, my vision faded to black. i lost my consciousness for a mere 5 seconds. fortunately, my body fell on the medium-hard agglomeration of soil, mixed with pebbles, some few big rocks and roots.

the thing is, i have no explanation on why i fainted today. it wasn't even hot, and i was well dehydrated.

i remember fainted when i was in form 2. i was playing adventure game, that me and my friends invented ourselves that we called 'x-game'. because we named ourselves 'x-boys'. we decided who the leader was gonna be by rock-paper-scissor, which was me. childish, i know.

anyway, i was looking for a clue, inside an evolution room, alone. i suddenly lost my balance due to the slippery tile, and fell, losing my concsiousness for about 5 minutes. no one found me, so i wake up on my own. ever since that incident, i became aware of the importance of studying. how strange huh?

i need some luck.

school will starts in about 8 days, and i'm not ready. both mentally and physically. i still have a lot of things to be sort, and to be done. i hope i'm having enough time.

i can't believe how fast this year is ending. i hope next year will be a much better year. it's gonna be a tough year as i'm planning a lot of stuff.

to take o-level again; english (scored=b3), malay (s=c6), and irk (i didn't take). my aim; english=A, malay=A/B, irk= at least an 'o'. i need these grades to make my scholarship aim for 2012 a little closer to be achieved.

collect more related certificates, means more activity such as life saving on water, blood donating and first aid. plus, i want to join scout. for uniformed group certificate.

retake AS on november. what subject? i'm guessing that it would be most of them.

A2 exams. means this will be clashed with AS. great. just great.

senior committe in prs.

committe in adventure club.

joining some extra cca club. taekwando and swimming maybe.

so dear friends, wish me luck.

gotta seek you, serenity.

for the past months of this year, my brain has been cramped. or should i say 'clogged'. with pretty much stuff, such as ideas, informations, memories, plans and to do's. i kept on reminding my self to jot them all down, but i didn't. these are half of the reasons of the lackness of my concentration in anything. strength of my memories fell drastically. these were then worsen by the stuffs that were taking place almost at the same freaking time. during seeds, i know that i would've performed much better. but my minds were and are still scrambled. tangled. my driving test was terrible. lucky that i passed. AS exams were too, giving almost untolerable pressure. i know i'm not gonna score my maths and physics. and i would be lucky even just to get E's on my EAS and Psycho papers. new school almost made me cazy. new friends, new environment. my adaption of my new school's environment was the number one reason why my acedemics are destroyed. PRS and Adventure, they gave me extra headaches. the worst part was, you. i'm/was on the edge of breakdown when college's life started. while other guys seek for new companion, i'm/ was still tangled up with you. i pretended that nothing ever happened, when you were around. but the second you were out of sight, that small smile of mine instantly faded. do you know how exhausting that is? to forget you, i need to not see you. but if i avoid you, i hurt you. and that would hurt me by twenty fold.


so you see, i've been strong for far too long. can i now sit down and cry? i miss you.

what does fate wants actually?

sunshines were peeking, finding a way through my closed eyelid. i slowly opened up my eyes. i felt my whole body weak. as if i never did had my sleep. but what i felt even more weak, was my right hand. sweating in cold, i started to shut my eyes closed, when suddenly they were caught by an unusual wake-up in the morning scene ; my right was holding something tight, which explained the extra weakness i felt. my brain was then struggling to find the answer of what might be that i was holding. and suddenly, i had a flashback, and the answer was getting clear..

to be continued.

i want another horse riding.

taken during PHB 2009.

mr. grassy head.

dine bought me this cool toy, a growing grass! i decided to call him mr. grassy head. hehe. :)



the beauty of a butterfly.

i am a caterpillar. an ugly and slimy leaves destroyer. i have no bone, so i move by crawling. slow, disgusting, and helpless. i am a defenseless creature who rely on help, sympathy and pity of others, in order to stay alive. the tree, my shelter, my food and my citadel.

would any of you cared to trade life with me? I DOUBT THAT.

one day, i was awakened by the beautiful but hot 'lump of white stuff' that was staring at me. i tried to stare back, but as usual, i lost. unusually fast though. come to think of it, i felt my eyes very heavy. my stomach grumbled, and i felt one painful headache. what's wrong with me! i cried, i wept, i screamed. nothing makes me felt better. instead, i felt like my body heating up. is this dying, i thought. when i can withstand the pressure no longer, i snapped, and went unconscious.

i dreamt of a beautiful and colourful winged creature soaring and waving at my home, the tree. i tried to move, but i don't know why not a single muscle i own was able to move. but i forced myself. i wanted to touch the beautiful creature. out of the blue, i managed to break free! only, the force was a little too much. i was thrown to the air, and i started to fall to the ground. in a few seconds, i died.

i opened my eyes in a matter of a nanosecond afterwards. am i in heaven, i asked. i saw the 'lump' was on the sky again, which made me realised, i was only having a dream. it also made me realised how great i felt i was that moment. no more pain and my vision was restored perfectly. i tried to crawl, when suddenly i realised, I HAVE A PAIR OF WINGS! i was beautiful. it was me i saw in my dream. can i fly, i thought. with a tinge of trust, i started flapping my wings, and jumped of the branch. do you ever experience 'butterfly in your stomach' sort of feelings? well, that was how i felt. ironic, i know.

a little background.

this is all that i can remember only.  ;)

i am finally back.

hey! it has been so long, and i have managed to find a new family, and a temporary only-exist-in-fairy-tale kind of kingdom of my own, SEEDS. and i gotta say,

IT WAS ONE HELL OF AN AWESOME ADVENTURE!